The One who died for all

I've been toying with the ideas of writing devotionals. Not a book, not to try and publish something or make fist-fulls of money. Just because I want to make my spiritual life more of a priority, and I can's seems to make that happen. So in my head, if I'm writing a devotional, I'm probably getting more out of it than if I'm reading one. And who knows, maybe someone else will get something out of it as well.
I was moving some dressers this evening, and after I got the first one off the porch and into the bedroom, I stopped and stood still for a second. I thought to myself, "Red (I call myself Red), you have more important things to do. Go pick up your Bible." I'd taken a walk on my lunch break this afternoon, and tried to just talk to God. You know, like in the country song I've been watching you, or whatever it is, where the little boy kneels down and "talks to God like he was talking to a friend". Now if a 3 year old can do it, I darn well should be able to. It's not like I don't have enough going on to ask His advice about. One of the things I asked today on my walk was that God show me how to fix my relationship with Him. It's not where it needs to be, it's not where i want it to be, and something needs to be done about that. This seemed like a logical place to start. Anyway, back to this evening. I grabbed a bookmark that our awesome neighbors gave me at Christmastime, which has verses listed by topic. I flipped to 2 Corinthians 5:17, which is listed under "salvation". It sounded like a nice topic to start with. That particular verse says "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new." I read it a couple times, let is marinate, and decided it wasn't quite what I was looking for tonight. I scanned the rest of chapter 5, and came across verses 14 and 15, which say "...that if One died for all, then all died; and He died for all, that those who live should live no longer for themselves, but for Him who died for them and rose again." Now THAT'S what I was looking for. I'm pickin up what Paul is putting down. I'm paintin what he's priming right there. I spend so much time stuck in the "not good enough to get into Heaven" mindset, focusing on what I need to change, what I need to do, who I need to convert, all the stuff that really, when it comes down to it, is just icing on the cake of your relationship with the One who died for all. Did you hear that? ALL. Every. Last. One. Of. Us. On. This. Earth. He wants all of us to come home with Him when He comes back. He died for all of us. To save all of us. All we have to do is accept that. I want to live for Him. I want to share Him, I want to take care of His people that aren't as crazy blessed as I am. There's a song by Casting Crowns called Until the Whole World Hears, and two of the lines are "I wanna be Your hands and feet, I wanna live a life that leads" and "and I pray that they will see, more of You and less of me". That's the life I want to live. Starting today. I want to shrink into the shadows and let Him shine out, to live for Him and not for myself anymore. I suppose the hard part will be figuring out how to do that.....any thoughts?
I know this was super stream-of-conciousness style, and maybe some day I'll come back and edit this to make it read like an actual devotional. But for now, it works for me. :)